The Emoji for 2019
I have meant to do more on Artistic Hope. This was never meant to be an organization. I have realized my entire life I have been fighting other people’s expectations, without anyone really communicating with me. I am betting other people have experienced this to, especially women. This was supposed to be a place for me to help the world. It was not meant to be taken over by others or to be a group endeavor. But some how we forget people can fly solo. We forget individuality. We have created a hive of discontent.
I am not feeling HOPE. I hate to say that. I also wanted this to be a positive place. I wanted my messages to be uplifting and inspiring, but lets face it in this age of nepotism, elitism, narcissism, sexism, racism, ageism, fascism, capitalism, socialism, communism, and there are more, being positive in the face of so much adversity just seems in-genuine. In fact someone made a list, though not all of them are bad. For the most part the isms need to go. We are living in a world where very sick people take pleasure in tearing down people’s dreams and hopes or in creating bots and troll personae to malignantly tear down good karma.
There is an attitude with some people that they only want positive people around them. But life is not positive 100% of the time. It is like telling a woman to smile yet rarely do we tell men to. Human beings we all have our ups and downs. What is sad is we seem to live in a world now where tearing down people’s happiness is acceptable behavior. And if someone is sad we really tear them down. It is crazy that people do not even connect the damage they do when they go on a troll warpath on line or social media.
This past year has been horrid. We have slid backwards into an abyss of repression of ideas and bigotry and fear. Our leaders promote making fun of people. Don’t we like it anymore when the bully loses and the underdog who is bullied overcomes?
I realize we live in terrifying times. We are destroying the planet. And its our fault. Though many Americans want to be in denial about that. I highly recommend the show the Patriot Act. Though Sanders is not my candidate for office, I agree with Hasan Minhaj comic portrayal of truth. (Again though you have your facts wrong about the X generation. We have the same issues as the Millennials. ) We need to stop eating processed food. We need to stop using oil and plastic. We need to stop the gun trade that is feeding wars. We need to stop eating sugar and corn syrup and actually eat real food from nature. Take care of the body to take care of the mind to make good art.
What does all this have to do with the EMOJI of 2019?
This in my opinion summarizes 2019. I went to several art events and have stacks of cards and photos I took but I never got around to writing them. I do not make money at this time doing this blog. I wanted to. And I feel like we live a world now where people want to take from you because they want it easy while making my world and others harder. Artistic Hope belongs to me. It is my project and my creation and I wish people would respect that. Instead I have had people gas light me. Someone pointing out that they had a professional photographer working for them. While I was there trying to find things to write about to build a writing blog business. I will never understand the need some people have to put down or steal or just be weird like that. I still want to write about the artists I met this past year. I will eventually catch up. But I will not sell adds on Artistic hope to businesses that sell diamonds when they use children to mine. I will not sell ads on this site to organizations that promote things that go against HOPE. Stop being stupid where I am concerned. Part of me is tired of being nice when I have put up with so much unnecessary abuse. I have been VERY SICK. The grass is never as green as you think it is in someone else’s yard.
How I feel about 2019 is perfectly captured in the throw up emoji below. I want to get the bad out and have a beautiful and healthy 2020 both mentally and physically. I wanted a KID did you all know that. I wanted love in my life and to pursue my own dreams. I have ART that is important to me. It seems twisted that I wanted to give hope and my very work toward that end was laced with abusive acts meant to take my hope away.